The Pocket and The Strawberry

Daddy why do you keep your feelings in your pocket

爸爸，你为什么总把情绪藏进口袋？

Is it full is it heavy does it weigh like a locket

里面装满了吗？很沉吗？像吊坠一样压人吗？

You taught me not to cry you taught me not to feel

你教我不要哭，教我不要有感觉

But the pocket's getting tight Daddy is it real

但口袋快被撑破了，爸爸，这真的是对的吗？

Five years old I fell in a puddle soaked to the bone

五岁那年我掉进水坑，浑身湿透

My daddy pulled me out said son shake it off don't moan

爸爸把我拉出来说：儿子，抖擞精神，别哼哼唧唧

Don't shiver don't let them see you cold be tough

别发抖，别让人看出你冷，要强悍一点

So I swallowed the shiver told myself I was enough

于是我咽下战栗，告诉自己我能撑住

Stuffed it in my pocket deep down where it stayed

把它塞进口袋最深处，任由它留在那里

Ten years old I stuttered and the whole class laughed

十岁那年我说话结巴，全班都在哄笑

Teacher said don't be sensitive don't take it to heart

老师说别那么敏感，别往心里去

So I swallowed the shame tore the words apart

于是我咽下羞耻，将那些话语撕碎

Daddy why do you keep your feelings in your pocket

爸爸，你为什么总把情绪藏进口袋？

Is it full is it heavy does it weigh like a locket

里面装满了吗？很沉吗？像吊坠一样压人吗？

You taught me not to cry you taught me not to feel

你教我不要哭，教我不要有感觉

But the pocket's getting tight Daddy is it real

但口袋快被撑破了，爸爸，这真的是对的吗？

Sixteen I wrote my first poem wanted to read it aloud

十六岁我写了第一首诗，想大声读出来

They said that's pretentious kid don't be weird don't be proud

他们说这太做作了，小子，别古怪，也别自命不凡

So I swallowed the verse crumpled it up in my hand

于是我咽下诗句，在手心里把它揉成一团

Twenty she left me for someone I said I understand

二十岁她为了别人离开我，我说我能理解

My boys said don't make a scene just let it go

哥们说别闹得太难看，随它去吧

So I swallowed the ache let nobody know

于是我咽下隐痛，不让任何人察觉

Thirty-five I'm at the office faking smiles every day

三十五岁我在办公室，每天强颜欢笑

Stuffed all my fatigue in my pocket walked away

把所有的疲惫塞进口袋，转身离去

Daddy why do you keep your feelings in your pocket

爸爸，你为什么总把情绪藏进口袋？

Is it full is it heavy does it weigh like a locket

里面装满了吗？很沉吗？像吊坠一样压人吗？

You taught me not to cry you taught me not to feel

你教我不要哭，教我不要有感觉

But the pocket's getting tight Daddy is it real

但口袋快被撑破了，爸爸，这真的是对的吗？

I told her don't cry when you fall crying's embarrassing

我告诉她摔倒了别哭，哭起来很丢脸

Don't show them you care don't show them anything

别让人看出你在乎，别流露任何情绪

Then she won a ribbon at the art show stood there with her drawing

后来她在画展上拿了奖，拿着画站在那儿

Face flat no smile like she didn't know what she was doing

她面无表情，没有笑容，仿佛不知所措

I said baby you won why aren't you glad

我说宝贝你赢了，为什么不开心呢？

She said Daddy am I allowed to be happy is that bad

她问：爸爸，我可以开心吗？那样不好吗？

Like she needed permission to feel permission to beam

仿佛她需要得到允许才能感受，才能绽放笑容

And my chest cracked open cause I knew what I'd done to her dream

我的心口猛地裂开了，因为我深知自己对她的梦想做了什么

I said baby of course you can you don't have to hide

我说宝贝，你当然可以，你不需要躲藏

What can I do for you I asked swallowing my pride

“我能为你做点什么？”我问道，咽下那点自尊心

She thought for a long time like it had been a while

她想了很久，仿佛已经过了很久

Since anyone asked her what she wanted what made her smile

很久都没人问过她想要什么，什么能让她微笑

Then she pulled out a strawberry broke it clean in two

接着她拿出一颗草莓，干脆地掰成两半

Said half for me half for you Daddy this is what I do

说：一半给我，一半给你，爸爸，这就是我想做的

And she handed me hot cocoa said warm your hands you're cold

她递给我一杯热可可，说：暖暖手吧，你很冷

And I felt the pocket empty I felt the weight let go

我感觉到口袋空了，感觉到那份沉重终于卸下

Daddy the pocket's empty now the feelings can breathe

爸爸，口袋现在空了，情绪终于可以呼吸

A strawberry for me cocoa for you that's how we heal

一颗草莓给我，一杯可可给你，这就是我们的治愈方式

You taught me not to cry but now you're crying too

你曾教我不要哭，但现在你也流泪了

And I think that's okay Daddy I think that's true

我觉得这样没关系，爸爸，我觉得这才是真实的